Order Only: Private message to Padfoot

[alt_lupin]

Are you a dog at the moment?

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[alt_sirius]

Oh, maths. No, Padfoot won't be much help there. Pity, I was hoping perhaps there was someone you needed me to growl at, or something.

Just use the calculatus spell, do you remember it, from the map? It'll do the sums. Might give you more than you need, I suppose.

Or don't do it. It'll keep, surely.

[alt_lupin]

I did it twice with calculatus and got two answers. Added it up the hard way and got a third. I think I'm going to have to leave this for Alice to deal with.

I don't need you to growl at anyone; I'm entirely capable of growling at people myself. If you want to come up here and be pleasant and personable so I don't have to talk to anyone, that might work.

Knowing that the entire Order is not in a conspiracy to irritate me is not making people less irritating.

[alt_sirius]

We're in trouble if I'm supposed to be the reasonable, placating one. That's never happening today.

Anyway, you're not the only one itching. I wanted -

I don't know what I wanted. Want. I want people to tell me they're sorry but I want people to leave me the fuck alone. I want a big acknowledgement of his sacrifice and I want to spend the day in a form where I don't have to think about it at all. I want them to tell me what they remember about him, but not ask me to share my memories, because they're too few and too precious to squander.

I want him back. I want to be done with this stupid war. I want to resurrect Tom Riddle just so I can kill him with my bare hands this time.

See. Not very reasonable.

[alt_lupin]

Those all sound reasonable.

Except for resurrecting Tom Riddle. Settle for killing Bellatrix Lestrange, instead.

[alt_sirius]

Oh, well, if you're going to start down that path, there's more than Bella. Barty, Dolohov - that list could take us a while.

Maybe we'll be lucky and they'll poke their heads out of London where we can get to them.