Of course they are.

How long before I fail them, too?

Hydra asked - she begged me to kill Bella for her. Because she doesn't think she can do it right now.

And I'm so relieved she didn't want to go along, because how could I have said no? but she only wanted it done, and it's all I want, too.

And if I live, well, that's Emrys having a joke on me. Maybe it'll make things better.

But if I don't - I just want you to know, I'm at peace with that.

I'm all right with that.